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[21 Jan 2007|08:26pm] |
& i find myself here too many times in a day
in a month, a lifetime.
heres to the one place, i have always counted on.
when there were no more familiar faces to count.
seems to me, that ive lost light.
and the nights are hard to see through
when being dim is youre best effort
and when being dumb has no more explination.
so what does it take.
i guess im lucky to not be god
cause than i'd have more at stake, other than my world.
i'd have... yours. yours, and yours too.
comes as no surprise, that ive taken on more than i can handle.
best intentions mean nothing to the best sweet talkers.
and now the best friends with the best comforts are better off gone.
its just like you, to be so forgetful.
its just so like you, to be so fearful.
so funny, we all just thought i was stuck up.
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hey unloving ♥
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[25 Nov 2006|05:29pm] |
settling would be nice
a nice feeling of settlement
its anything but comforting
when your life hasnt changed
but your preception changes
i do pray the day will come
when i feel satisfied.
until than
well, nothing.
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2 hey unloving ♥
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[13 Oct 2006|06:40pm] |
it goes a little something like that.
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1 hey unloving ♥
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[30 Sep 2006|09:54pm] |
i'll admit it.
im pmsing.
but you better believe after this phaze
clubbin+money+blacks & ho's... i mean girls.
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hey unloving ♥
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[22 Sep 2006|08:25pm] |
my vacation is here.
i refuse to pay attention
i refuse to pay affection
you'll know when im back.
you'll know i am gone.
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1 hey unloving ♥
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[18 Sep 2006|11:16pm] |
theres homework, interviews to be done.
calls to be made
beds to be made
words to be said
letters to be read.
i thought i was done with this
i thought you said you gave it back
youre clouding my mind
youre fogging my time
you should leave
before anyone sees you here
before i realize its you
because i start to get used to you again.
this isnt god
this isnt fate
ive got to go
ive got to go
ive got to get out of this town.
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hey unloving ♥
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[12 Sep 2006|01:04pm] |
my back is warm, and so is the concrete
they both meet, and settle for the stay
a smoke hangs low from my lips,
waiting,
waiting, to be lit
to be ignited
waiting, for its life to start.
i already know, the second the burn is born
i am attatched. but theres nothing left to do but exhale.
and my hood is harboring headphones, my head and rootless thoughts.
but i will be grateful for what little i own, and for what little i own up too.
my chest rises to the occasion.
and falls with evidence floating up into the trees.
its nothing but pollution caught on the leaves
but tonight it feels like spirituality.
steady static traces over my aura, and i feel my skin start to heal onto the course concrete. theres no way i am getting up now.
theres no way im getting out of this now.
my throat has found comfort in the fact that my lungs are bleeding.
comfort in the continuing sting of smoke, in in in.
im adjusting so well, so beautifully tonight.
my racing thoughts, the blarring music, the swerving cars serve as silence.
& i can tell i finally fit.
thank you lord for showing me where to be.
thank you lord for leading me to what i need to see.
the second i rip my roots up from the cement and fall into bed.
i should have listened-i should have stayed still.
lord have mercy. i am no longer welcome home.
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1 hey unloving ♥
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[07 Sep 2006|04:30pm] |
i think i have a girl problem.
there has to be a girl anonymous meeting
let me know, sucka
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4 hey unloving ♥
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